This morning I opened up this tiny blue box I got from 95% Training somewhere earlier this year. We were asked to write down all the dreams and goals we could think of in that short moment, and to keep it in the box. Its the first time I opened it up again after that, so I was pouring over it and wondering where I am right now with my goals. So amongst some of the things I jotted down and will always want to keep in mind were,

1. To live for Christ and not make Him worry bout me too much.

2. To be a good influence on my siblings. Especially to my younger sister. Sometimes our age gaps creates differences that makes it very hard for me to relate to her and very hard for her to reach out to me. ): I want to be that sister that she can look up to and say, "Man, that Jesus guy sure is awesome. It makes my Jie joyful. I want it too."

3 To encourage the younger generation to own Malaysia. Or else who is going to own Malaysia? Let Singaporeans come and take our land ah?

4. Marry the man I love. Here I would probably expand it more specifically and say marry the man who loves Jesus and me, whom I love. *laughs* I know that I keep saying its hard for me to imagine myself married right now, but I believe I will eventually mellow down and want to settle down wannn... the key word here is eventually.

5. Raise children to love Christ. I will always want my kids to grow up in a Christ centered family and have the love of not two but THREE parents. (or was it SIX? cause got Trinity and all...) We will have family traditions like the kids taking turn to say grace at the dinner table, and daddy will lead the kids to say thank you Jesus each night before bedtime. And they will grow up to be good people that has love, kindness and compassion for others. :)

6. To serve others. There's many ways and outlets to do this, as numerous as the different needs of different people in different points on the earth. So right now I don't know how to do this exactly in the future, or where I should be going to serve the needy. Yet I want to first cultivate that heart to serve in the places I am already at, like in Uni and in AFS, and in the places that I can reach, like Malaysia!

7. To be able, at the end of my days, to tell God I tried my very best. I think one of the greatest, if not only the most important and lasting compliment anyone can give is God saying, "Hey, good job." But even if at the end of the day I didn't do such a good job living my life right for Christ, I still want to be able to stand before Him and say I tried my best with confidence knowing that I really did try.

There were other bits of random things I wanted to do that was written down, like opening an animal shelter, visiting all the Disneylands in the world and owning a library at home etc... but unless it is centered around Christ, I want to make sure it is only of secondary importance in my life.

p.s. On a random note, I registered for application to Travel and Work USA. Gonna sign up for the February intake. Excited!