...can either make you or break you.

I just feel so beaten and down atm, can't flush the piled up discouragements out of my system. 

I should move out sooner. At first I was deciding against it, I thought, she never seemed to be at peace with me staying out. She can never assure herself that I'll be safe outside. But I just can't take anymore of this moral beating, it's destroying my mood for everything and I'm going back to dwelling in swirled thoughts of frustrations. 

Maybe a little distance between myself and the family will help me to learn control over this heart as well. 

Sometimes, it's just a little sad that you're receiving moral support and hugs solely from external sources such as friends and mates, instead of your own family simply because they don't see what you do.