Everyday there is a struggle within me to just let go and let trust. I tend to think that perhaps its due to my upbringing. For in 20 years of living I have always been one to independantly fend for myself, make my own decisions, mistakes, corrections and all. I never did trust easily.
Hence there is always this doubt that nudges and casts its shadow over my beliefs, regardless how minutely small it may be it bothers the living daylights out of me. With each prayer comes more of the wanting to believe, and not exactly really believing it with everything I've got to give.
That changed ever so slightly today.
With a potentially dramatic and tragic family insident totally avoided, and solved with much peace beyond my imagined expectations, I'm totally floored by the outcome. I think, never has the mighty awesome power of prayer impacted me so greatly as it did today. God really, really is good :D
Sent a super excitement-charged message back to those who had prayed for me to reveal to them the great and relieving news, then Tim replied telling me to get used to miracles happening in my life. Lol. Damn, he's so right!
I did something right today. I stood up for what was important and right to me. While sincerely believing in Him to work the aspects I cannot handle out was again, not the easiest thing to do, I am reminded that even the littlest of faith can move mountains.
And believe me, that was some mountain in my life crumbling like cookies.
With each step I take, it brings me closer and closer. I honestly cannot ask for anything better :)
