Monday, March 31, 2008
"better now" @ 12:38 AM
I'm feeling alright now.... much much better by the end of the weekend...and I would like to apologize for worrying some people over my previous blog post. So glad that I have precious friends like you guys that worries about me, but I'm alright. I'll be fine. I just needed a place to rant it out once in a while.
So really, you guys can stop bombarding my phone with sms-es edi ....
Its just that its really been a rough week for all of us. It's been shitty for me personally, but we all have to learn to come to terms with life and death, learn to accept that this is the way it is. I have gained a lot this week also, so in a sense I'm also very, extremely grateful on how things worked out.
I saw my older brother cry DDDD=
To me that was the most traumatizing. Its like, the rarer something happens, the more profound the effects could be. Because it means more when it does happen, or something like that. I don't even quite remember the last time he cried in front of me, or anyone for that matter. So when he did on Friday... my heart just broke. I probably grieved for his grieve more than I did for anyone, even compared to dad. It was so
painful seeing him like that, I myself cried till I soaked my t-shirt.
I think I may have a serious brother complex issue at hand. =/
But he's been very protective of me, he guided my younger sister and I the entire way. He held my hand when I said goodbye to grandma. Took me out to fulfill my selfish whim of food on two occasions. Worried over me as I almost died coughing late at night as we slept =) We got over it together too, and now we're fighting over the PSP usage. Lol. Things will slowly get back to normal, I'm pretty sure. He's already turned my bedroom into a deserted warzone, his undergarments and stuff on MY CLEAN CLOTHES, vitals signs that he's back to his stupid usual self =.=
Still, I
sayang him la..... cept when he yells at my dog. And chases her. He did that this morning and after confronting him I made him apologize to Bubbles for being so mean and hurting her feelings. >=( Nobody can yell at Bubbles cept me.
Other than that, I couldn't have asked for a better weekend. Especially on Saturday, I had lots of fun on Saturday where we went to watch Water Horse. The laughter induced then with Edwin and Joshua as my dates made up for the pitiful lack of it the entire week prior. Both glad and grateful that Saturday happened, as well as Sunday - went to watch Heroes Season 2 marathon. That was really interesting, and addictive cause now I want to watch everything all over again 8D I kind of needed the distractions cause I really hate facing my assignments right now haha.
Edwin is so cute, he's so small but his honesty can kill DDD8
He called me a FAT CHIPMUNK. omgz. *mengamuk*
And this cough... it's been so long already yet its not showing any signs of leaving. Kills my voice every now and then, especially in the morning. I sound like
my grumpy mother crap in the morning. Haha. I wonder if it might be anything more serious. Like TB. swt. XD I should go have a check up appointment with a doctor soon ya?
