Monday, January 7, 2008
"Back to College" @ 1:54 AM
I cannot.... for the love of everything purple..... go to sleep.
No surprises there really. It's only 2 in the morning now, hardly the appropriate time for me to sleep in during the usual days. Still, college life is starting in a few hours and by right I should sleep early to be able to wake up early. Fresh start, start fresh.
Fat chance of
that happening now.
I really can't get to sleep. Been gorging myself with P.S I Love You in the hopes that I'll start to feel sleepy soon, a lovely novel that I can't seem to be able to put down now. Funny how sleepiness only works with particular books... such as boring course textbooks. =D It wasn't even much of a drag to pull myself out of bed to the living and try blogging instead. It really did seem like a good idea at first, now I'm wide awake.
I'm even fixing fish sticks in the oven for crying out loud. Actually it should be done any minute now.... just waiting for the smell of burnt before I go rushing trying to save a fire from sparking out of control.
Point of the story, I just can't seem to sleep early anymore. Credits goes to my totally screwed up bio-clock, which actually is so constantly screwed up it's pretty permanent. I blame the holidays. I blame my habits of not wanting to sleep early. I blame thinking too much these days. I'm just so used to it. So used to going to sleep only when I feel sleepy, only when I feel bored stiff... so used to the calls late at night that keeps me company, Aiko bitching over msn with me all night long, and the howls of stray dogs during the most unholy hours. Sigh. Oh how I will miss you all...
Right now, I probably am blaming it on my hungry stomach.
Dinner didn't really feel like dinner because I was rejecting dinner, and many meals before this dinner too. But there's really nothing to worry about, since chocolate is still so appealing to me. I've been having so much chocolate spread toast it'll probably kill my doctor with fright. When it comes to spreading chocolate on my bread you're staring at the most generous person in the world. So as long as I've not lost interest in chocolate, I believe I am absolutely fine and dandy and sane.
Oh. My fillets are ready... the "ching~~!!" just went off. Just in time for CSI too. Hopefully after this I'll be able to get some shut eye.
I know perfectly well I will live to regret eating this late later. Ah well.....
