Tuesday, July 17, 2007
"Beaten & Dissapointed" @ 5:04 AM
These few weeks have been unkind.
The unforseen and unwelcomed events that took place one after another breaks my heart harder than the previous blow. With all sorts of jumbled up feelings right now I don't know how to react or feel to what I can only sum up as pure dissapointment, in myself as a friend, and in friends as my friends.
To whomever it may concern, whether you know it's you or not.... I hope that one day you'll be able to open your eyes, and realize how we are really do care about you, but there is always a limit to how much we can be there to provide for your every need. We are humans too, we need the tolerance too, we need the understandings and individual spaces too. We need you to understand that it's not all of us giving you and you taking it all, there has to be some balanced in any sort of relationship.
I hope one day you will learn how to respect my decisions as well as my opinion in things, or the way I deal with my own problems and friends. Most of all I hope one day you will realize that a true friend is seriously hard to come by, and that you can tell the difference between play-friends and friends that will really be there for you. I'm not just speaking for myself, but for the many people who has sacrificed a plenty for you when you needed us/them, but yet whom you threw away carelessly the moment they do not agree with your views.
Your paranoia has brought you into deeper shit than before.
Wake up, before you loose everything that is good for you. What I see, is what you can't see. Let me tell you what I see.I see that friends of yours are leaving one by one, one more disgusted by the former. Baffled at how you came to be like this. But most of all.
Dissapointed.
Wake up dear. You will always be precious to me. Wake up, before all that is precious is the memories of what was, and what has been.
